Hello Beloved

As I continue to ponder this month’s theme "Holding History" I have been reflecting on my own history, the moments that enriched my life, and those moments that were difficult. Many of you may not know that in March 2010, my husband was deported, (he is back now), this was a defining moment in my life.

For many years I used this moment to hold me back and defeat me, it led me to lose my faith, the faith I had in myself and the faith I had in anything divine. It was also the moment that led me to finally take control of my life, I decided to no longer let my history define me, and to take my life back.

I was stuck in a rut waiting for my husband to return, waiting for that “perfect moment” after several years and no seeming solution. I realized that there are never perfect moments. Waiting was no longer an option; over the next 5 years I finished my education and continued the task of bringing my husband home.

After eight long years my husband came home, and I was well on my way to finding my calling as a Unitarian Universalists minister. This history still lives in me, I cannot speak of this time without tears welling up. Sometimes I feel ashamed, why does this still happen? It's over!! But as I remember, the heartbreak, the pain, my daughter’s tears, and her loss, time we can never get back, I mourn for us. One thing I have learned, the more I speak of it, the more I can move past it and release that history and make room for a new history.

Just as we work to release holding too tightly to our personal history, we must work together to release our collective histories and make room for new collective histories.

If you are new to Beacon, we want to meet you, please join us please for our Connecting at Beacon in person session that Sunday Nov 21st at 12:15 pm (right after the service). The weather is getting colder and that means Summit Warm Hearts is now open, and we need hosts for the program Mondays-Saturdays 9am-1pm and Sundays 12-3pm as well as lunches. If interested in helping email us at swh@summitbeacon.org.